We all struggle with something we’re afraid of, be it as small as a spider or as big as a purpose in life. But recently I realized that I have been living my life in fear. I’m going to college because I’m afraid I wouldn’t get a decent job without a degree. I’m afraid that I’m not attractive enough. I’m scared of failing God’s tests. I live according to the things I’m afraid of.
Today in church, our speaker (the radiant Joie Pirkey) reminded us: God will take you as far as you are willing to go. This hit me like a ton of bricks. I realized that if I lay down my fears and have faith, he will take me farther.
God already knows that I want His will for my life, that I want to bring people to his kingdom, and I want his heart so that I may love the lost. The only thing I need to do know is repent and really trust him- but that’s easier said than done.
So… I know what I need to do- but how do I do it? Reading 1 Chronicles helped me remember:
1 Chronicles 16:11
“Look to the Lord and his strength; seek his face always. Remember the wonders he has done, his miracles, and the judgments he pronounced, you his servants, the descendants of Israel, his chosen ones, the children of Jacob.”
By seeking the Lord and getting to know his word and voice, I will not have to worry about a plan for my life. I will fall deeper in love with my Savior, our relationship will grow, and in turn he’ll be able to use me more. YES!
Today is Easter Sunday and today I realized that Jesus died on the cross, not only to take away my sin, but also to make a way for me, and to take away my fear. The shields I put up in my heart are now under construction- I want to start tearing away those walls for Him.
When those walls come down, what can I expect? Should I be afraid of what’s to come? Absolutely not.
“Moses said to the people, “Do not be afraid. God has come to test you, so that the fear of God will be with you to keep you from sinning.””
God will go as far as I will go with tearing down my walls, trusting him, and following him. Using the world and my flesh as a safety net is not what God intended for my life, or yours. I’m excited to see what my life will be when I stop worrying and stop living for fleshly things. When I stop trying to fix things for myself and let God take the reigns, I know my life will be better than I could have imagined.
I’m going to tear down my walls of fear, stare into the face of the unknown and take a leap of faith.Now the question is: Will you?