At this point in my life, I feel like all I do is wait. I’m waiting to finish college, waiting to find a boyfriend, get married, have kids, have a job I really love… Just waiting. And sometimes, I just sit back like an observer, watching my life unfold- disconnected and detached because I’m tired of waiting and getting my hopes up for something to happen.
But here’s the deal, when we wait on the LORD and spend our time growing in him, the time goes faster and he works in us. I know, I know. It’s much easier said than done.
Lately, besides how the LORD has been working in me, in the corner of my heart there is a dull ache that rarely leaves. It stings every time I see two people my age in love, or I see my sister holding Kieran (my nephew) and say he’s her son. He’s her son. What is truly mine?
I have a mom and Dad. A dog. A house. But who do I have to really love? What have I accomplished? What purpose do I serve? What’s the point in waiting for the things God has promised me? After all these questions have rolled around in my head, I can’t help but sulk around the house or hide from my responsibilities…
And even after all that God is challenging me to keep waiting- especially to wait on him. He reminded me of this verse:
Psalm 37: 34
Wait for the Lord and keep his way, and he will exalt you to inherit the land; you will look on when the wicked are cut off.
Shoot dang, guys. I don’t want to be one of the wicked! I want to inherit all that God has for me! This verse and many others are things I need to keep in mind whenever that heaviness in my heart reappears.
But honestly, guys, what does waiting on the Lord even mean?
I think that waiting on the Lord means: *seeking his face when you don’t want to or it’s not easy, *being persistent in prayer/ communication with the Holy Spirit, *repenting of sins daily, *listening to criticisms (from the Lord or messenger) && applying it to your life, and *being obedient when God asks you to go.
Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
When we rely on God and wait for him to instruct us rather than moping around, we can find confidence and comfort in who God is. ✞