Today, one of my best friends got engaged. She is going to marry the man of her dreams and I’m so happy for her.
In our society, every little girl dreams about her wedding one day. The white dress, the hair, the makeup, the man– and the beginning of a new life with the man that God has created for you.
As excited as I am for my beautiful friend, part of my heart can’t help but ask god, “Where is my man?” Now, God has told me that I would have a boyfriend by the end of this year, but it’s practically December. Where could he be hiding?
I’ve also been trying not to look at it as “No one loves me” but to enjoy the time I have as a single woman. I am a very independent, free person, and I’m trying to enjoy being able to go wherever without telling anyone, not having to make compromises about where to eat or what to watch on TV. Now of course, these aren’t the biggest things in the world, but as a 21 year old, they are the things I value.
There was someone I really thought I liked, and I almost asked him out (What? I know, definitely not like me) -The more that I thought about asking him out, the more I realized that he had all the qualities I am looking for in a man (loves the LORD, knows his word, is sensitive and goofy, etc), but he really doesn’t seem to be interested in me. That’s totally okay, but I’m really not into getting my heart broken.
God has shown me through all of this that if I put the guy thing in his hands rather than pursuing someone, he’ll bring a man who will be gentle with my heart and really love me the way that God intends a man to love a woman. And I’m excited for that.
Until that man is brought into life, I will continue to spend time in the word, getting to know the most important man in my life ( besides my daddy), the LORD.
1 Corinthians 13: 4-8
” Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away.”
I know that God will bring a man into my life where I can replace the word “love” with his name, and it will fit perfectly.
Until then, I’m going to focus on god, myself, and how to be a good daughter, sister, friend, student, blogger and potential maid of honor. At the end of the day, I have faith that Jesus Christ will always provide ✞
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